Been a while...

Busy life keeps me from blogging.

lots has been going on, not too much time to explain/describe it all.

what I really want to blog about tonight is how it really seems unimportant to even blog what HAS been happening because I don't feel like all that has happened is even all that important.

sums up a general malaise I think that I've been stuck in: namely, "it's just life"... which implies that I'm not really enjoying it all that much lately.

And there's no reason why I shouldn't be enjoying it... it's not like it's going horribly or something like that. Honestly, there's been lots of GOOD stuff going on
1. Exams over for a couple weeks (hooray)
2. The semester almost over!! (yes!!)
3. Girls' weekend with mom and Jess--I love the traditional girl's "hunting" weekend!
4. a good interview which has led to the "next step"-- I find out more Wednesday
5. a couple dates/potential dates...
6. Thanksgiving in a couple days

And yet, I can't seem to feel EXCITED about any of it, for various reasons I guess:
1. Exams will begin again in a couple weeks
2. I have a TON to do before the semester can really be over
3. the weekend is OVER and I didn't get any WORK done
4. I don't think I'm even interested in the job!!
5. many confusing reasons I don't want to get into
6. I am not feeling like Thanksgiving will be a relaxing weekend at all


BUT, I know I ought to be just as happy as a clown, after all, I'm truly lucky and blah blah blah... which is true.

Meh, I'll quit my... complaining.

I think I might know a source of my malaise and it actually angers me that I would let "it" get to me... I apologize, I've gotten cryptic.

I feel like lately, but today in particular, I've been bouncing back and forth all over the spectrum-- from feeling motivated and happy and alert and relatively energetic to just completely demoralized and discouraged and tired and realtively apathetic.

Sometimes I think I'm nuts! (and some of you probably agree!)

Eh well, life goes on. and it is "just life"