again with song lyrics...

seems all my posts are either lyrics or something else as un-original... eh well:


I got a story it's almost finished
all I need is someone to tell it to
maybe, that's you...

our time is borrowed and spent too freely
every minute I have needs to be made up,
but how?

I'm looking for a nice way to say
"I'm out."
I want out.

the open road is still miles away
Hey nothing serious
we still have our fun
or we had it once

Windows open and close
that's just how it goes

don't it feel like sunshine afterall
the world we love, forever gone
we're only just as happy
as everyone else seems to think we are.

seems I rarely put anything "real" up here... I guess maybe because I don't think my life is that interesting, and the parts of it that I seem to spend most time thinking about aren't really ones I want out there for the world to critique...

Work started, and it's funny, I never really saw myself where I am now. I'm trying my best to get really excited about it, and I have my moments where I'm pretty excited. And then there's the other moments where I just look at things and can hardly believe I somehow ended up where I am.
Don't get me wrong, Epic is great so far and besides, it's only been a week and a half so it's all just getting started... but I'm not feeling fulfillment. (okay, granted, that should probably take longer than a week and a half anyway-) but there's just something... I don't know how to describe it.
Maybe because I DID tend to be an imaginative person, I kind of had some ideas about the future. And work didn't figure into things as much as it looks like it will now in reality. Not to say I planned to be a bum or something like that--but just that I never thought the only person I would have to work for would be myself. Work always figured in as sort of supplemental... and I feel like I need to just accept that maybe work will be the central part of my life? Kind of a scary thought.

Your Personality Is

Guardian (SJ) You are sensible, down to earth, and goal oriented. Bottom line, you are good at playing by the rules. You tend to be dominant - and you are a natural leader. You are interested in rules and order. Morals are important to you. A hard worker, you give your all at whatever you do. You're very serious, and people often tell you to lighten up. In love, you tend to take things carefully and slowly. At work, you are suited to almost any career - but you excel in leadership positions. With others, you tend to be polite and formal. As far as looks go, you are traditionally attractive. You take good care of yourself. On weekends, you tend to like to do organized activities. In fact, you often organize them!

The Three Question Personality Test

You Are Sunrise

You enjoy living a slow, fulfilling life. You enjoy living every moment, no matter how ordinary. You are a person of reflection and meditation. You start and end every day by looking inward. Caring and giving, you enjoy making people happy. You're often cooking for friends or buying them gifts. All in all, you know how to love life for what it is - not for how it should be.

What Time Of Day Are You?

You Are a White Flower

A white flower tends to represent purity, simple beauty, and modesty. At times, you are dignified like a magnolia. And at other times, you represent great ecstasy, like a white orchid. And more than you wish, you're a little boastful, like a white hydrangea.

What Color Flower Are You?

You Are Olive Green

You are the most real of all the green shades. You're always true to yourself. For you, authenticity and honesty are very important... both in others and yourself. You are grounded and secure. It takes a lot to shake you. People see you as dependable, probably the most dependable person they know.

What Color Green Are You?

I've never found a way to say I love you
but if the chance came by, I, oh I would
but way back where I come from
we never mean to bother
we don't like to make our passions other peoples' concern
and we walk in world of safe people
and at night we walk into our houses and burn

how I long to fall just a little bit
to dance out of the lights and stray from the light
but I fear that to fall in love with you
is to fall from a great and gruesome height
so you know I asked a friend about it
on a bad day-her husband had just left her
she sat down on the chair he'd left behind
she said, 'what is love? where did it get me?
whoever thought of love is no friend of mine.'

once I had everything I gave it up
for the shoulder of a driveway
and the words I've never felt
and so for you I came this far across the tracks
ten miles above the limit and with no seatbelt
and I'd do it again
for tonight I went running
through the screendoors of discretion
for I woke up from a nightmare that I could not stand to see
you were wandering out on the hills of Iowa
and you were not thinking of me

stars are out tonight
and you're the brightest one that's shining in my sky
it's like every wish I ever had came true
the day I woke up lying next to you

would you be my best friend
if I offered you my heart?
'coz it's already yours
we could hang out every night
and watch the sun go down
as long as we could watch it rise again

Ah, Life...

Busy busy busy lately... seems like I just catch my breath and then there's more to do, but luckily I think the end of the semester is shaping up to slow down!!

I feel like this blog has taken a turn towards me just posting random "fwd" messages that I get and not really writing about anything in particular... so do I want to switch back to some sort of "journal" approach? meh, don't think I have time for that!!

If you know me, my updates on here might make sense... if not, well enjoy the random ramblings

I've been working on resolving myself to just taking life as it comes at me... and not being so impatient or concerned with what I want all the time... wish me luck!

Along that note, I have taken a job-- at Epic Systems!! It was pretty much just placed in front of me and I think it's perfect for me. Travel so I don't get stuck in Madison and yet still located here close to family.

Next year will be strange-- a real job, real life, and so many people moving to places other than madison... I feel like it's a whole new beginning! Who knows what else will happen too, eh? :)

Ok enough sentimentality.

Sunday April 2, 2006 there is a bowling drive to benefit Mashambanzou ("dawn of a new day"), a charity in Hararre, Zimbabwe. It helps orphans, widows, widowers, and those affected by AIDS (which has a like 35% infection rate in Zimbabwe!)... Due to some Rotarian connections we can get money in to the charity, despite corruption and bad government! If anyone who reads this is bored from noon-5pm on Sunday, head for Union South and bowl for an hour for Mashambanzou---bring friends, just $30 per team of 4-6 people (that's $5/person and includes the lane and shoes!)

Ok that's my plug for that.

:) I am in quite the good mood today, despite being sore from running like a zillion miles yesterday (I seriously got carried away for a first run outside)... the weather was so gorgeous I just took off and before I knew it I was out by the beltline near Park St almost... and I started by the capital...

God's Cake

Sometimes we wonder, "what did I do to deserve THIS?" or "why did God have to do this to me?" Here is a wonderful explanation!

A daughter is telling her mom how everything is going wrong. She's failing algebra, her boyfriend broke up with her and her best friend is moving away.

Meanwhile, her mom is baking a cake and asks her daughter if she would like a snack. The daughter says, "absolutely mom, I LOVE your cake!"

"Here, have some cooking oil," her mother offers.
"Yuck!" says her daughter.

"How about a couple raw eggs?"
"Eew, those are gross mom!"
"Would you like some flour then? or maybe baking soda?
"mom, those are all disgusting!"

To which the mother replied: "yes, all those things seem bad all by themselves, but when they are put together in the right way, they make a wonderfully delicious cake."

God works the same way. Many times we wonder why He would let us go through such bad and difficult times. But God knows that when He puts these things all in His order, they always work for good! We just have to trust Him and eventually, they will all make something wonderful!